im not good at words. but you see the thing about me is that, i'm a really pessimistic person. i tend to feel inferior very often. especially at this point of situation. always very confident that im capable of handling my own emotions. but look at me now, i look as shitty as ever. i always believed i no longer need to mess up my man with all my bad feelings and emotions because the last thing i wanted is to stress him even further when he has enough problems to deal with.

its just a sudden realisation that i guess i think too highly of myself.

and now the future seems so bleak to me. i dare not think and imagine as much as before about my future. but i shall just pray. just pray.

but come to think of it. those hurtful words that i said. seems to make sense though, it seems that i didn't say it out of anger, it seems to be a fact. thats what hurts the most.

i dare not imagine of replacing that position that this person has stayed in their heart. i dare not think and fantasize that much anymore. bless me

weitingfam

im not good at words. but you see the thing about me is that, i'm a really pessimistic person. i tend to feel inferior very often. especially at this point of situation. always very confident that im capable of handling my own emotions. but look at me now, i look as shitty as ever. i always believed i no longer need to mess up my man with all my bad feelings and emotions because the last thing i wanted is to stress him even further when he has enough problems to deal with.

its just a sudden realisation that i guess i think too highly of myself.

and now the future seems so bleak to me. i dare not think and imagine as much as before about my future. but i shall just pray. just pray.

but come to think of it. those hurtful words that i said. seems to make sense though, it seems that i didn't say it out of anger, it seems to be a fact. thats what hurts the most.

i dare not imagine of replacing that position that this person has stayed in their heart. i dare not think and fantasize that much anymore. bless me

weitingfam